{"id":141988219,"date":"2024-02-28T22:28:06","date_gmt":"2024-02-28T22:28:06","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/cynthiarodriguez.org\/2024\/02\/28\/banana\/"},"modified":"2024-02-28T22:28:06","modified_gmt":"2024-02-28T22:28:06","slug":"banana","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cynthiarodriguez.org\/eng\/2024\/02\/28\/banana\/","title":{"rendered":"Banana"},"content":{"rendered":"<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">El origen de mis cr\u00f3nicas g\u00e1stricas.<\/h2><p>Por m\u00e1s de seis meses, estuve buscando la manera correcta de compartir mi proceso. Envuelta en az\u00facar y en miel para no herir a personas del pasado. A sistemas de control y descontrol del pasado. A mi yo rebelde, irracional, que al buscar sanar su infancia termin\u00f3 da\u00f1ando su juventud. <\/p><p>Pero al fin, en la \u00faltima sesi\u00f3n del taller Todos Mis Nombres de Valeria Salas Carrillo, apareci\u00f3 el detonante que permiti\u00f3 contar mi historia. Inspirada en el poema \u201cManca\u201d de la internacional Juana \u00c1dcock, Valeria nos puso un ejercicio siguiendo algunas palabras clave. Palabras m\u00e1gicas, en mi opini\u00f3n. Nos hizo preguntarnos si seguir\u00edamos siendo los mismos si nos cort\u00e1ramos una parte de lo que vemos como nuestra identidad. Y esta parte de m\u00ed, la verdad, mucho tiempo lo fue. Fue mi tarjeta para salir de la c\u00e1rcel, pero tambi\u00e9n fue mi c\u00e1rcel. Mi verg\u00fcenza disfrazada de orgullo. Mi papalote y, eventualmente, mi ancla. As\u00ed que ah\u00ed va.<\/p><figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com\/public\/images\/818efb69-1b52-4f8c-a843-94b6703c3dce_1122x748.jpeg\"\/><\/figure><h1 class=\"wp-block-heading\"><strong>Banana<\/strong><\/h1><p>Hoy me levant\u00e9 y decid\u00ed cortarme el 80% del est\u00f3mago.\u00a0<br\/>Los latidos del coraz\u00f3n me sub\u00edan a los o\u00eddos y no pod\u00eda respirar.\u00a0<br\/>Cada que iba a la Ciudad de M\u00e9xico, estallaba cada noche un Don Gregorio en mi cabeza.\u00a0<br\/>La ropa me era m\u00e1s ajena y los cinturones de los aviones volaban de un oc\u00e9ano al otro.\u00a0<br\/>Tomaba tantas pastillas como dedos de las manos.\u00a0<br\/>Una rana en mi garganta.\u00a0<br\/>Salvavidas en los tobillos que de vez en cuando se torc\u00edan como ramas en el Hurac\u00e1n Gilberto.\u00a0<br\/>Los treintas, un obst\u00e1culo.\u00a0<br\/>Los cuarentas, una ilusi\u00f3n.\u00a0<br\/>Dragones en el es\u00f3fago y cataratas en los ojos.\u00a0<br\/>As\u00ed que se tuvo que ir antes de que yo me fuera.\u00a0<\/p><p>\u00bfY ahora c\u00f3mo voy a poner excusas?\u00a0<br\/>\u00bfC\u00f3mo voy a decir que nadie me quiere? \u00bfQue el mundo conspira y que quienes me evitan lo hacen por crimen de odio?\u00a0<br\/>\u00bfC\u00f3mo voy a estacionarme en caja azul?\u00a0<br\/>\u00bfC\u00f3mo voy a hacerme la oprimida en un lugar donde lo tengo todo?<\/p><p>\u00bfC\u00f3mo voy a decir que todo lo malo que me pasa en la vida es por ser gorda?\u00a0<br\/>\u00bfC\u00f3mo no voy a decir\u00a0que, en realidad, todo lo malo que me pasa en la vida es por ser mamona y pendeja?<\/p><div class=\"subscription-widget-wrap-editor\" data-attrs=\"{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https:\/\/hazloporella.substack.com\/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Suscribirse&quot;,&quot;language&quot;:&quot;es&quot;}\" data-component-name=\"SubscribeWidgetToDOM\"><div class=\"subscription-widget show-subscribe\"><div class=\"preamble\"><p class=\"cta-caption\">\u00a1Gracias por leer Hazlo por Ella! 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