{"id":144442180,"date":"2024-05-08T19:01:11","date_gmt":"2024-05-08T19:01:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/cynthiarodriguez.org\/2024\/05\/08\/desde-la-angustia-o-desde-el-amor\/"},"modified":"2025-09-06T12:09:02","modified_gmt":"2025-09-06T12:09:02","slug":"desde-la-angustia-o-desde-el-amor","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cynthiarodriguez.org\/eng\/2024\/05\/08\/desde-la-angustia-o-desde-el-amor\/","title":{"rendered":"From angst or from love?"},"content":{"rendered":"<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Sobre decisiones y acciones.<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>Un amigo me acaba de leer las cartas. Tiene un mazo hermoso de <strong><a href=\"https:\/\/www.scribd.com\/document\/705903431\/Tarot-Del-Toro-tarot-deck-guidebook\">Guillermo del Toro<\/a><\/strong>, hecho a la usanza del estilo Thoth e inspirado en los arquetipos de los personajes de Del Toro. Por ejemplo, entre las que salieron, me sali\u00f3 <strong>La Estrella<\/strong>:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com\/public\/images\/5a82a6d9-8479-4440-9215-d29fad2ceccf_474x850.jpeg\" alt=\"\"\/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Tambi\u00e9n me sali\u00f3 <strong>El Mago<\/strong>, una representaci\u00f3n muy preciosa de nuestro vecino Del Totoro, que llegamos a la conclusi\u00f3n de que no huele a hot cakes, sino que <strong>huele a whiskey<\/strong> &#8211; y mi amigo dice que tambi\u00e9n huele a polvo de libros viejos.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com\/public\/images\/30434e18-ab23-41a9-a430-a55fac15f114_1659x2488.jpeg\" alt=\"\"\/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>En resumen, el consejo de mi amigo y de las cartas fue <strong>regresar a mi capullo y recuperarme del caos entre mis inspiraciones y espacios de contenci\u00f3n.<\/strong> Seguir con mi camino de introspecci\u00f3n y autorevisi\u00f3n, cerrando influencias externas hasta encontrarme verdaderamente alineada conmigo misma. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hay una relaci\u00f3n muy fuerte entre una nueva pasi\u00f3n &#8211; o m\u00e1s bien una pasi\u00f3n revisitada &#8211; y el movimiento. <strong>La pasi\u00f3n impulsada por el movimiento, el movimiento impulsado por la pasi\u00f3n.<\/strong> El resultado de esta relaci\u00f3n ser\u00eda tener mayor asertividad y saber digerir mejor mis palabras.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Me reacerco a esta pasi\u00f3n como El Mago. <strong>Con ingenuidad, pero con m\u00e1s madurez.<\/strong> Ya lo hab\u00eda intentado antes, no funcion\u00f3, y ahora que lo est\u00e9 haciendo desde mi yo m\u00e1s asertivo y consolidado, podr\u00e9 sentir m\u00e1s auto-realizaci\u00f3n a partir de este reencuentro con mi pasi\u00f3n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>El consejo m\u00e1s fuerte que vino, fue <strong>no tomar decisiones desde la angustia.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Es curioso, porque mucho de lo que escribo o he escrito ha salido de la angustia. Escritura cat\u00e1rtica, ca\u00f3tica, que se sumerge en conclusiones desde el primer moret\u00f3n. Una conocida ley\u00f3 <strong><a href=\"https:\/\/www.amazon.com.mx\/Meanwhile-English-Cynthia-Rodr%C3%ADguez-Ju%C3%A1rez-ebook\/dp\/B09HWVL726\">mi libro de poes\u00eda<\/a><\/strong> y no le gust\u00f3 que fuera tan doloroso. Tanto dolor, tanta angustia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ahora que he estado revisando y limpiando <strong><a href=\"https:\/\/cynthiarodriguez.org\/eng\/\">mi sitio web<\/a><\/strong>, la mayor\u00eda de las viejas entradas en mi blog ten\u00edan mucha de esa angustia. Todo era opresi\u00f3n, todo era feo, todo era una lucha, mi ambiente, yo misma, me estaba matando.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Escribiendo, actuando, decidiendo desde la angustia, no me hizo nada bien. Me ayud\u00f3 a conectar con otras personas, pero la mayor\u00eda de esas conexiones hicieron falso contacto. <strong>Al no tener tierra en el enchufe, hubo mucho corto circuito.<\/strong> De esa carrera de poeta traumada, angustiosa, que s\u00f3lo exist\u00eda para cumplir cuotas industriales y hacer quedar mejor a otras personas traumadas y angustiosas, no queda nada.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Otra amiga compart\u00eda que una conocida suya se inspir\u00f3 mucho en <em><strong>tick, tick&#8230; BOOM!<\/strong><\/em> la pel\u00edcula sobre el creador del musical <em><strong>RENT<\/strong><\/em>. Hay una escena en la que el protagonista se pregunta <strong>si est\u00e1 tomando una decisi\u00f3n desde el amor o desde el miedo.<\/strong> La decisi\u00f3n desde el miedo era la peor decisi\u00f3n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Por eso decido decidir desde el amor. <strong>Decido escribir desde el amor.<\/strong> Expresarme desde el amor y desde la asertividad. 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