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Observaciones matutinas m\u00e1s all\u00e1 de los tiempos modernos.<\/h2>\n\n\n\n
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Photo: Lidia Stawinska<\/a> \/ Unsplash<\/a><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Esta ma\u00f1ana me puse a llorar,
porque sent\u00eda que el mundo \u00faltimamente era demasiado oscuro,
demasiado r\u00e1pido e intenso.
Porque sent\u00eda que no pertenec\u00eda a este mundo.
Que no hab\u00eda lugar en \u00e9l para m\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qu\u00e9 pendejada, la verdad.
\u00bfCu\u00e1ndo he sentido que pertenezco al mundo?
\u00bfCu\u00e1ndo he sentido que hay lugar en \u00e9l para m\u00ed?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Antes no hab\u00eda IA y sent\u00eda lo mismo.
Antes el presidente era otro, y sent\u00eda lo mismo.
En los tiempos del MySpace, del Tumblr, del MSN, del Fotolog, sent\u00eda lo mismo.
En los tiempos de los foros BBS, de las p\u00e1ginas de Geocities y Angelfire, del ICQ, de conectarse al Internet por el tel\u00e9fono de casa, sent\u00eda lo mismo.
Antes de tener computadora en casa. Cuando pon\u00eda DVDs y CDs. Cuando pon\u00eda VHS y casetes. Cuando mi abuela viv\u00eda, sent\u00eda lo mismo.
Cuando le dabas vuelta a la ruedita del tel\u00e9fono, d\u00edgito por d\u00edgito.
Cuando encontrabas lo que buscabas en la Secci\u00f3n Amarilla, en la enciclopedia, en el Vanidades, en el Selecciones.
Cuando un terreno en Villa de Santiago no costaba tanto. Cuando vivir en Santa Catarina no te hac\u00eda fif\u00ed.
Cuando el d\u00f3lar estaba a tres pesos.
Cuando los ni\u00f1os sab\u00edan escribir en cursiva y script. Cuando las aves cantaban en el jard\u00edn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u00fan as\u00ed, no sent\u00eda pertenecer al mundo.
A\u00fan as\u00ed, no hab\u00eda lugar en \u00e9l para m\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Y peor a\u00fan, estaba sin diagnosticar. Sin medicar. Sin, entre comillas, controlar.
Y todo lo que le pasaba a mi cuerpo y a mi mente era mi culpa. Mi elecci\u00f3n.
Y ahora que estoy m\u00e1s o menos en orden,
que soy el sue\u00f1o flaco de mi ni\u00f1a gorda,
que soy la adulta autista de mi ni\u00f1a loca,
que amo y soy amada mucho m\u00e1s de lo que alguna vez jam\u00e1s so\u00f1\u00e9,
sigo sintiendo esa impertenencia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Quiz\u00e1s la hubiera seguido sintiendo si viviera en la prehistoria, fuera una modelo s\u00faper inteligente con un harem a mi disposici\u00f3n, y todo esto fuera un bosque, con las aguas cristalinas y los cielos transparentes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Quiz\u00e1s ning\u00fan chile me va a embonar porque la vida no se trata de que algo te embone.
Quiz\u00e1s nunca voy a sentir que pertenezco al mundo porque el mundo no es algo a lo que se pertenece.
El mundo es algo que se es.
El mundo es algo que se vive.
Tan imperfecto como todos.
Tan remediable como todos.
Yo incluida.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Las aves siguen cantando en el jard\u00edn.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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